I have huge expectations for myself: I must be the best in my office, I have to win at games, you've all seen how awesome I am in most things. The problem is my tendency to only apply that mentality to some things, not my entire life. I am in horrible health, grossly overweight, can't follow a budget to save my life, and generally am lazy inside my home, where no one is watching.
Sometimes I feel like I deserve a break, I have "earned" the right to slack off but that's not true. No one deserves to live like I do and I'm not going to do it anymore. I'm TIRED of being TIRED. I have to change my tune, change my ways, change my life. And the first step in do that is to stop hiding. That's what I've done since August, I've hidden. The chart below shows that.
NO MORE SON! GET YOUR BUTT UP! NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE YOU A FREE PASS ANYMORE! STOP BEING A BLOODY FOOL AND LIVE YOUR LIFE.
"No one deserves to live like I do"
ReplyDeleteHold on to these words. Put them on a post-it at work, on the fridge at home, remind yourself that you deserve better so you are going to DO BETTER. It's not easy. It won't be. It will be a struggle every minute of every day sometimes, you know that.
You also know you're worth the struggle.
I've been pretty darn good at hiding too! And like you said, at some point, you just get tired of feeling like you have to keep doing that. I was just thinking about that live your life idea myself this morning. Looking at how quick lives are actually changing for so many of my blog friends. Gorman has lost so much weight in such a short time! He's just one good example, but dang! What he's done is freaking amazing! Something that six months ago, I felt would be absolutely impossible. But now, I can see the possibility, it can be done, even by a big fat turd like me (no offense Mike, not implying you're a turd here, talking about myself)
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