It's been said that things get easier the longer you do them. I've heard that habits take 21 days to form. Someone once told me "There's nothing to it but to do it". I'm here to tell myself that it's OK to struggle.
I have huge expectations for myself: I must be the best in my office, I have to win at games, you've all seen how awesome I am in most things. The problem is my tendency to only apply that mentality to some things, not my entire life. I am in horrible health, grossly overweight, can't follow a budget to save my life, and generally am lazy inside my home, where no one is watching.
Sometimes I feel like I deserve a break, I have "earned" the right to slack off but that's not true. No one deserves to live like I do and I'm not going to do it anymore. I'm TIRED of being TIRED. I have to change my tune, change my ways, change my life. And the first step in do that is to stop hiding. That's what I've done since August, I've hidden. The chart below shows that.
NO MORE SON! GET YOUR BUTT UP! NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE YOU A FREE PASS ANYMORE! STOP BEING A BLOODY FOOL AND LIVE YOUR LIFE.